tomor is report day..
i dun like report day..
cos i m always racing against wth tm..

tis mth report wil nt b e same..
cos i hv to do togethr wth sadness..
cos nobody wil ask me 'cn go bk alrdy...?'

我是个一直生活在灰暗世界里的人..
在我的世界里，只有灰..

有一天，我遇到了太阳..
我的世界里， 开始有了别的颜色..

但现在，我的太阳被很多很多的乌云遮住了..
它再也不能在我的世界里放光彩..

我的世界又变回了灰色..

太阳告诉我，它在等风的到来..
等风来了，乌云就无法再缠着它..
等风来了， 它就可以再拥有光彩..

ppl always say,
u nd to 争取 inordr to get wht u wan..
u nd to wk hard in ordr for it to grow..

frens ard me always say,
u r too soft..
cn u b more selfish & just think of urself..?

i did 争取..
i did wk on it to grow..
i did wht i m suppose to & more..
but... in e end....?

if i m nt soft,
tis family wil nt hv today..
my darlings wil nt hv today..

if i m more selfish, & just think of myself..
thr wil b more fights, more quarrel..
i wil add on more stress to u..
u wil nt b hapi..

so........
i m here to make othrs hapi..
to gv wht everybody wan..
tis is my life..

in e end..
is nothg, nvm, is ok.. & move on..

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i dun wana 任命..
i wana belief tht i wil find tht sm1 to grow old wth..
i wana belief tht thr is a true person ot thr, tht wil loves & cares abt me..
i wana belief tht i m nt too old, too fat to hv a partner..
i wana belief so many thgs..

but.. it is always end up..
i m wrong..

it is always end up,
i m alone agn..

i wk hard..
but bumps, waves & obstacles will gets even HARDER & higher..

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is it so difficult to hv a person to grow old wth..?
m i reali like shit..?
& deserve nothg..?

cn i nt 任命..?
cn i nt belief tht i m a piece of shit..?
cn i nt belief tht i m no gd..?
cn i nt belief tht i'll b a loner forever?
cn i nt?
cn i nt?
cn i nt?

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aftr so many yrs..
fr waiting for hub to cm bk..
til they got married & hv baby..

fr i knock myself on e wall many tm..
til i hv u..

i tot u wil b my full stop.....

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wun blame u for tos stress tht i m going thru..
i knw wht i m doing, & i knw wht i wil b facing..

but.. i did nt ask for e result to b like tht..
e end result shd b, we hv our nest..

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we love each othr so much..
most of our quarrels r nt bcos of us.. but othrs..
we wanted to b wth each othr so much..
but bcos of othrs..

i cun belief in tis 20th century, ch8 drama is happening on us..
ppl ard u, r giving in 100000% to break us up..
& they succeeded..
guess they shd celebrate they hv their son bk..
but they dun bothr whether he is hapi or nt..
they dun care how he feels..
they forget their son is a human..
they say is rite means nvr wrong..
they took their son's happiness away..
they took their son's faith & confident away..
they took their son's everythg away..

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smbody ask u.. "爱得这样辛苦，是爱情吗?"

my tots.. "爱得这样的辛苦，这才叫真正的爱情"

tht person who ask u, 懂吗?

爱得这样的辛苦, 就可以, 或应该扔掉吗...?

migraine..

plus heartache..

migraine..

we r both stress..
m nt sure wht is ur stress..

dun wori, i wil nt stress u..
talk to me if u nd to..

u shd knw wht u wan..
is ur life..

saw tis ouside my window last evening..

is beautiful..

is raining..
so heavily..
plus lightning..
& loud thundr..

a day to JB..
we went in ard noon..

traffic was gd..
waiting tm was short..
weathr wasnt hot eithr..

we walk ard city sq..
had tea break at a outlet thr wth a super big hse fly roaming ard..

thn we went to take a look at the store..
noticed is quite an empty pl..
oni afew shops.. e whole pl look deserted..

but.. due to both of us were reali tired..
we decided to try massage, quite cheap..
ard myr50 each, we had a 40mins foot reflex
& a 15min bk massage..

it was great............
e atmosphere..
e skill.. r gd..
wil go thr agn.. =)

aftr e massage we walked ard e supermarket..
compare afew prices.. bot afew thgs..

& we headed for our dinr..
we ordr..

crab.. + buns..

vegi + pork..

& of cos thr were tos '串烧'..

& & my favourite 'smelly beans'...

i even packet sm smelly beans bk hm.. =)

tis crab meat.. were fr my beloved dear..

he insisted to remove all shells away for me..

*sweet* ... ^.^ felt being loved..

tks dear..

we spend ard 70 ringgit for e food..

& we had a great day thr.. ;p

i had finished 谈情说案.. (林峰/杨怡)

m nw watching 掌上明珠(宣萱/林保怡)..

dear had diarrhea e nite b4 we go batam..

he woke up ard 3am, thn 5am to release..

& vomited..

was wori for him & so early no pharmacy..

dear didnt wan us to cancel e trip..

so we all had our breakfast,

took our mistakes all ovr tickets,

& off we go..

arrived & our VIP mini bus..

we visited a cake shop..

smells & taste nice..

we also went temple..

pray.. is a big temple..

we also watched sm 'wow....' amazing performance..

jump fire.. swallow glass..

open a coconut via teeth.. swallow fire..

'lion dance'..

thn we had lunch at e golden prawn restaurant..

it was raining whn we arrived..

& these r our lunch..

we changed e 1st dish to eggy..

cos nobody knw hw to eat tis 'shell'..

&... e coconut is nt nice..

old, hard & taste funny..

lex was nt feeling v well too..

headache & feeling cold..

fish.. eggy..

squid.. crab..

vegi.. prawns..

soup & fruits..

lunch ok oni..

fish abit hard, soup abit plain, crab too small..



oh.. & i was attracted by tis plate number..

guess wht.. is a police car plate..

my poor dear.. headache & tired..

we visited a 'mini town' pl..

actually wana go kart but.. flr too wet..

every buildings inside r all mini size..

& here, is whr we had our dinr..

my curry.. & dear's squid rice..

lex's bake rice.. & eric's steak..

hl's pizza..

wen's ice cream & wedges..

thn whn we r going bk..

we saw.. beautiful sunset..

&.... rainbow...

i m so so excited whn i saw e rainbow..

is nt just 1, is a double rainbow..

& a full 1..

is reali so beautiful..

& off we go.. bk to spore..

we went for a massage/scrub too..

thou all of us were in pain..

but kindna enjoy..