i said 'dun like latr..'
u ask y..

i replied cos i'll officially lost my hse..
i'll officially dun hv a 'shelter'..
i said 'm sad' ..

u said, 'thought u all r quite excited shifting ovr..'
i ask, 'm i..? did i said m excited shifting in..?'

thn u said fr my body language..
i ask, 'my body language said m excited to shift ovr..?'
u reply, 'kind of..'

yes, m excited to see e hse..
& oni whn she wasn't ard..

tht was curious, wana see hw gd, nice or fantastic e pl is..
nt e excitement to shift in..

wan u to recall wht i hv been saying tis few weeks..
fr i wana glue myself to e rm..
to if no tv in rm i'll go dwn str..
to i wan my dvd player..
to i wana stay at sue's pl..
etc etc etc..

base on wht u said just nw..
was amaze tht my body did nt syn wth my mind..
was surprise to knw fr my dear tht my body 'signal' to him
tht i m excited to shift ovr..

i see u more, i talk to u more thn e 2 ah gals..
but if u were to ask any 1 of thm,
whether m i excited to shift ovr,
m sure they wil tell u m nt..

u said u hardly read my blog..
dun knw wht i wrote..

thought.. if a person cares so much for e othr person,
he/she wil wana read e blog everyday.. he or she will
automatically go visit e blog everyday to see any updates..

u cun tell whethr i m hapi or nt..
u cun tell whethr i m sad or nt..
u dun feel it.. u dun sense it..

nt tht i wan u to read my blog..
u dun hv to, as u dun hv e practise..
u dun need to, if u dun see e need..

e blog is just a dairy for me..
to write dwn all my feelings & thoughts..
to note dwn all my memories.. thts all..

i always feel i m alone..
battling.. struggling..
nt just wk, nt just body & mind..
everythg.. everythg..

thought u undrstd me..
thought u wil knw..


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