we had plans..
we discuss & talk..

but now..
we ended for e sick of ending e fights at ur side..
for e sick of fulfilling everybody unreasonable wishes..
even if they turn ur life upside dwn..

is ok to let go of smbody whom cares so much abt u..
she nt just given u mental & physical support,
she is always by ur side whn ever anythg happens..

is ok to go bk on ur words & promises..
even if she dun mind u hv 3 darlings,
even if she dun mind u hv unreasonable family,
even she dun mind dun go ot,
even if she dun mind she is nt 'recognise'..

& all she ask for..... is to b wth u..

u said u r different..
u said u r nt thm..
u said u love me so much..
u said u feel urself whn u r wth me..
u said u wil cherish..
u said all u wish for is i love ur kids..

i fit in every category u wan..

but i dun fit ur family's category..

suddenly i m a nobody..
u cn say let go just like tht..
suddenly i notice i dun std a pl at all in ur heart..

whr is ur heart..?
all tos 1 & a half yr moments means nothg to u..?

ur family r all selfish ppl..
& u hv no choice but to also b selfish..
u hv no choice to fetch bk wth jessica if they insist..
u hv no say..
in tis family, u r a nobody..
but in my life, colin, u were a smbody..

u ask me, for e sick of me,
u gona tear ur family apart...?
guess i dun hv e power to make u do tht..

u said u wil nt b tht painful aftr awhile..
means.................
u wil get ovr me real sn..
shd i feel hapi for u..?

as much as i m trying so hard to make it work..
as much as i m standing firm on us..
as much as i m prepare to std by u..
as much as i m prepare to war..
as much as i m prepare to sacrifice..
as much as i hv been a gd gf..
as much i love u..

as much as.... as much as........

in e end..
tis is ur way of loving me..
by leaving me alone..
all by myself..

loner agn..
whr is my rainbow...?

i found 1..
but.. is broken...