zzz ard 12plus mid nite last nite..
didnt online stream my movies at all..
went straight to bed rite aftr i bath..
tired.. whole bk, shouldr, body hv been aching for few days ever since 'best fren' arrives..
hv to tks dear for e massage to reduce my aching..

& tis morning, i zzzz til 10 plus am..
i was surprise cos i hv been waking up ard 7plus 8am for e past few weekends..

had a gd rest thou i did awake a couple of tm, like 2plus am, 5plus am, 7plus am..
but all manage to zzzz bk rite away..

&................

i had a dream tis morning..
i cn stil remembr e dream v clearly whn i m awake..

in e dream jaslene (jeff's wife) face was reali 'black'..
she was v angry..
m nt sure y, or wht i did to upset her..
she wanted me to leave..
she dun wan me to stay at her pl anymore..

haiz.......... tis dream bothers me..

bto nd to wait 4yrs if i m so lucky to get it..
4yrs.. but i wil hv more $ prepare for renovation by thn..

jeff gv me an impression is bettr tht i cn move ot asap..
althou he didnt say e actual sentence/words ot asking me to leave..
althou he did say i cn stay thr forever if i wan to..

but whn i told him abt e dream tis morning,
he said : 'now e resale flat cash nt so much alrdy..'
he said his fren bot a 3rm flat at amk, cash oni like less thn 10K..
he said mayb i cn consider resale 3rm flat..

haiz...... mayb is me being 多心ba..

shd i wait for bto..? or shd i get a 3rm...?
mayb i m nt selected at all for all e bto i applied..?
mayb at e end of all e bto, i stil hv to get a resale flat at e open market..?

haiz.....

3rm... hmmm.....

prefer to hv a 4rm.. if possible..
guess... i nd to push myself agn..
limits.. & stretch..