1.5 deals, anothr 1.5 more to go..

yestrdy basically seems like a hungry day..
morning didnt eat anythg fr i open my eye 5.30am-12plus pm..
gona die.. lol..

thn at nite, rch hm ard 8.20pm, play wth jovan..bath..
thn hv my dinr.. hungry hungry day..

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today i didnt put eye lashes..
hope dear wun got frighten wth no lash me.. haha..
woke up tis morning wth left side head 'pulling'..
now stil pulling.. looks like wil get worst..
thou it seems like migraine,
but e migraine medi didnt wk e previous tm..
wonder shd i take migraine medi or panado now..

called small aunt last nite to understd more abt dad..
she said dad having heart problem.. his heart beat v fast..
she said his leg swell cos of water retention..
it was caused by his heart didnt function properly..
and bcos of e water retention, he cun pee..

small aunt also mentioned doc wori dad may hv stroke..
doc gave him medi & he cn now pee..
doc wan dad to stabilize b4 he cn b discharge..
doc also wana do a brain scan for him..
small aunt said doc dun allow dad to change hospital,
cos his condition nt v stable now.. thus he is stil in NUH,
but all his records r all at SGH..

small aunt told me,
to ask my brother to go hospital to sign medisave payment..
well.. i told her he will not do tht..
i wil hv to find time to go dwn to sign e medisave payment..

i dun like i m e oni 1 to pay for dad's fees..
i dun like y must me b e 1 to ask, to check abt dad..
is nt e matter of me b stingy, or petty.. etc etc..
i just feel tht y e whole responsibility r on me..

e last time whn dad had his heart surgery few yrs bk,
he used my cpf..
last week whn dad said nd $ to go see doc,
i went hm wth dear, dinr thr & gave mum $200 for dad's checkup fees..

wht wil happen if they did nt adopt me 41yrs ago...?