older darling's bd celebration..
a simple celebration with family & frens..



wana thank all his frens & eu for making tis happen..
wana thank thm for making tis an importn memory for him..

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tis game, was introduced by dear..



i like tis game..
althou it seems more like a guy game..
tis game actually allows u to build, grow, recruit & battle..
try tis game if u havent play.. quite fun..

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brother stil in hospital..
his cancer is so sudden to all of us..

aftr 4days of chemo, he seems tired..
he said everythg he eats now has bcom tasteless..
anothr 6mths to recovery, he needs to endure & b strong
hope everythg smooth smooth..

i was rather stress past week..
nt much appetite to eat..
everyday visiting, worrying,
resulted me feeling tired..
looking at him like tht,
plus my mum cries (she seems lost & is supper worry)..
i cun help to think twice on e food i eat..
i love spicy food.. reali love..
but now i wil think twice,
try nt to eat too spicy..
try to eat healthier..

i always tell gal & mei,
dun drink too much green tea, or coke..
drink more plain water..

i told dear to eat healthier,
he said if anythg happen to him,
he wil tell e doc to just put him to zz... *angry*
i told him, i wil nt allow tht to happen..
i wil tell e doc to everythg talk to me, nt him.. *roll my eye*

brother's his tummy stil v bloated..
besides e v bloated tummy (supper uncomfortable),
his bk stil ache (doc took his bone marrow couple of days bk)..
his hands full of blue black fr needles..
e drip, e taking of blood to examine every hourly..
sigh........................

as for me, aftr monitoring him aftr his chemo for few days,
he seems quite alright.. m relax alittl.. my appetite came bk..

tis is just e 1st chemo & thr wil b anothr properly 5 more to go..
& thr r so many thgs to take note & careful of..

such as whether his kidney, body cn take it or nt (chemo is a v strong therapy)..
must b hygiene & no raw food at all (nt even half boil egg),
cos his immune system is totally zero..
chemo kills all his cells away (all means gd & bad cells)..
cn nt fever, & to go hospital right away if fever rch 38 degree..

sigh.. (starts get worry agn while typing all tis)

only whn brother is so unwell,
thn i know he is james.. lol.. ~~

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wana thanks dear for being supportive (i needed tht)..
thanks him for driving me here & thr..
& thanks him for understding my stress & frustration..
thank Q dear...

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having migraine last night..
it continue tis morning..
quite a bad one.. cos i wil usually feel ok after 1 hr of medi..
but tis tm round, i only feel better aftr 3hrs of medi..

didnt reali zz well past few days..
littl darling talk in his dream, snore..
bb jovan scream & cry early early morning..
gona b zombie soon.. lol

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i wana watch watch..
hopefully cn watch coming week..

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jeff & her went to natas fair last night..
they r bringing bb jovan to korea in dec12 for 8days..
they r going with her family..

m thinking, dec is too cold for bb..
he is too young to go so far..
we dun knw whether is he ok wth e food thr,
althou they say gona bring slow cooker thr..
& i m wondering hw is bb gona sit in e plane for 6-7hrs..?

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older darling's camp is sending him to australia nxt mth for few weeks..
anothr thg to worry..

parents...... duty nt just taking care and educate their kids..
anothr 'duty' is always worrying abt their children..
til e day we close our eyes.. lol.. right dear...?


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