older darling is coming bk.. counting down..
heard of e scary bills..
& sm punishment he may nd to face..

most importantly.. is bk hm safe

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a v bz bz week..
reports.. insufficient staff & preparation of new project...

going bk office almost every weekend makes me feels
like i m working 6days a week..
coming week will stretch min 12days I think..
did e Nov roster.. pretty much same like Oct

I hope staffs will walk thru these tough tm with me

new project will begin Dec..
frankly, dun think we r or will b ready.. sigh..

foresee I'll b bz for at least another yr..
cos I'll dealing with not just cub,
plus aces.. e reports will properly flood me..
current cub alrdy nd min 7-8 working days.. with aces...
not forgetting all projects r equally importantly..

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I was boiling when I know I nd to carry e cpu down..
remove doc, files fr e cpu is nt an easy task..
transfer fr my cpu to share folder bit by bit..
then copy all files to my hard disk..

carry e bulky & heavy cpu all by myself..
and install everything bk when it came bk,
bit by bit fr hard disk to common folder,
then to my cpu..

bz with unnecessary thg..

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dad in hospital 2 weeks alrdy..
3 scope, blood count drop..
hv no idea y or what happen..

wonder what's e bill ..
wonder what will e doc do next..

guess he will b hm tomorrow..
I'll go pick him fr wk..

mum has been nagging..
makes me feels more 'fan'..

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being with u I alrdy know I cun rely on u..
nt bcos u nt e person I cn reply on..
is I dun wan to burden u with my stuff..

I nd to constantly remind myself to b independent..

coping with almost everything on my own,
deaking with our new noisy environment..
plus e many stress I m having..

I m sorry..
I knw I m rather short temper lately..
I'll learn to manage my stress,
& will also learn to manage my temper..

but.. I do hope u truly know me,
& understd what I m going thru with ur heart..
almost 4yrs, i dun remembr any making use of u..
except for relying..

i knw driving me ard occasionally to hospital or cck,
is a favour, nt a duty.. & u know I do appreciate..

pls dun judge me when I m nt e norm me..
hv patient with me when I gone crazy..
if u know ur so call 'wife'..

I m sorry.. for loosing my cool..
for making u feel make used..

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getting older everything goes bigger..
butt go bigger,
thigh go bigger,
waist go bigger,
tummy go bigger,
eye bag also goes bigger..


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