brother right eye swell..
doc said perhaps is a relapse, or an effect fr chemo.
test & test & test & stil testing.
everythg is a question mark.

he called me awhile ago..
said Dr yong suggested him to do chemo directly fr e head.
Dr yong mentioned like tht effect faster.

brother is worry cos per jab is ard $5-$6k
besides e $, he is worry whether his body cn take it or nt.

told him nt to think so much, i'll talk to e doc.
my point of view, he shd at least try.

meeting his doc tomor am.

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yestrdy was dad's 77 49days.
dear assisted to buy 'small' & 'big' $, shoe & clothes for him
went temple to pray him ard 12plus pm.

prayed together with a monk, & packet afew ang bao for shi fu.
after praying, shi fu asked whether i did study buddhism..?
i asked shi fu hw cm he knw.. lol, m thining he cn sense it?
i told him yes, & i told him my primary & secondary sch r buddhist sch.
shi fu asked me to go learn buddhist, he said i cn go temple & listen his teaching.

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went photo shooting with my dear..
we post & post & post till we got wht we wan.
so fun.. hahaha.. i like but i didnt tell him.

surprisingly, he told me awhile ago,
tht we shd go photo shooting whn we hv nothg to do.

love it.. ^ ^
we share this same hobby..

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v v forgetful lately..
getting littl worry.

i cn forget to flash aftr i toilet at hm..
but tis wun happen whn i m outside.. strange..

dear said i m too stress lately..
well..... he always knw hw to comfort me

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few more days to my report day..
by thn i wil b super bz agn..
both left & right hand wun b ard.
hopefully cases nt alot.

i hv a always fever, stomach pain staff.
looking at her, i seriously dun knw hw cn she survive nxt tm
think her bonus wil b a gone case.

in order for me to help u, u hv to help urself 1st.
if nt, nobody, nt even god cn help u.

i once read sm1 wrote :

"Some people's hearts are hard to reach; that doesn't mean it's not there."

but, this person who wrote this never think :
these people need to open their heart.. if not, is as good as e heart is nt thr.
  
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bb hfmd recovered.
he is now so cute.. *love*
he talks alot.. cute ^ ^
he chooses his own shirt & shoes when go out.
he wil say " i fart..."

haha.. funny boy.

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few more days to mar..
my hse is alrdy at 13th flr..
perhaps end of e yr cn get e hse if everythg goes smoothly.

i'll shift another round b4 heading to my own pl.

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