mind is confuse..
i m human, i hv feelings, i hv thoughts..
feelings like happy, angry, sad, disappointed, excited etc
i hv my selfish moments, greedy moments, boiling moments etc..
althou i m more of a giving person in nature..

i m a buddhist, nt a v gd 1 i knw..
buddhism teaches me to forgive, to take thgs easy,
to understd life, to be contented, to b positive,
to love, to help, etc etc etc..

but i hv many Q.. think & think y, hw, & whether i cn do so..?
i of e Q in my mind, & i think only able to obtain answer fr monk is,

buddhism teaches us nt to kill.
thus we r encourage nt to eat meat,
1 thg i dun undrstd is,
pig, cow, goat (all animals) hv life cn nt kill..

thn vegi & fruits wil also die if no water or no fertilizers..
vegi & fruits hv life but dun consider as kill...? 
is it bcos they hv no blood thus nt taken as a life?



lol.. pardon me.. as a buddhist, i hv many Qs too..
i  hv many thgs dun understd too.. 

i wana b a better person..
even if i cun change my current life,
at least to hv a better nxt life..

i wana help tos ard me to b a better person..
even if my tiny help cun change anythg in their current life..
i would wan their nxt life to b better..

从小就与佛有缘
皈依了，也学了佛
偶尔也会梦到佛，或菩萨
我相信因果，也明白业障
只是我没那份智慧，力量与恒心去修..

愿我这小小的慧根能随着岁月增长..
来世，来来世，来来来世也好..


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