hw long hv i nt updated my blog..? seems so long..

latest news, actor huang wenyong passed away fr lymphoma on Sat at e age of 60.
lymphoma..... same as my bro..
bro's almost 9 mths... nt sure hw long did wenyong had it..

doc said he cn go hm if he didnt get worst.. properly nxt mon.
nt bcos he is cured.. is bcos he had finished e whole cycle of e new chemo.
& thr is nothg more e doc cn do.. no better medi, nothg else..

coming week is his last chemo..e chemo tht inject on his brain..
it seems controlling, cos his right eye cn open wide nw..
other thn e right eye, e rest remains e same..
hands & legs stil numb.. & his new symtom is gastric..

nt sure wht wil happen aftr he goes hm..
doc said, as he is at adv stage, it wun b cured.
e chemo is only to prolong his life..
doc said it wil cm bk soon.. once it is bk,
it wil means gone case..

i didnt tell mum & bro abt tis..
i knw they wun b able to take e news..
althou in their hearts they knw it is v tough to recover..
but guess deep dwn in their heart, they stil carry sm hope..
they stil hope for miricle..

bro has been v bad temper.. everyday scold mum & neice..
mum cun take it any longer.. she said she dun feel like viditing him nowadays..
mum said dun feel like visiting her beloved son...
cn u see hw 'serious' it is nw...?

i dun knw hw to enlighten bro..
it wun go into his brain no matter hw or wht others said..
i guess... hatred had swollowed his heart..

i m nw worry more for my mum..
dun knw hw long cn she tong..
it is tough on her for e past 9mths..

gona sign custody soon but nt sure he is gona sign nt.. sigh..
foresee he wil scold more whn he is at hm..
mum & niece wil b his poor target..

but..... seriously.... i dun think he wil last long..
cos whn he is bk hm, chemo wil only b once a mth instead of 2x a week..
& tht once a mth chemo is just to hang him thr..

imagine 2x a week condition alrdy like tht..
wht wil happen if is just once a mth...?


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