going to hear & see wht is tht woman up to.

my concern is more on mum.
worri she cun take it.
worri she wil go blank.

i m v nt hapi with tht woman.
mum is alrdy so old.
she is wasting my tm too.


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everyday awake, is anothr day towards e 'othr side'..

i always remind myself.. to cherish wht i hv.
to love ppl tht i love more.

i dun wana be gone withot letting thm knw hw much i love thm..

so, i wil always tell thm i love thm..
i wil always buy thgs for thm..

dun wana regret going away withot letting thm knw hw much i love thm


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i love my 2 darlings.
i love mr phee.
i love baby jovan too..

i love my heart to heart frens,
& i love tos ppl who love me..


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updates....

i did sm staffs pampering last week.
bot snacks, ice cream & made sandwiches for thm



nxt, is food with my dear..
tis aug exceeded our 1 gd meal target.
dear said tis aug we ate til end of e yr leow... lol

yummy lunch with dear,
at new york new york..  ^ ^
e chk is gd.. e drink is sm banana drink.. haha.. cun remembr e name



our usual fav food, vivo shin kushiya..
wil usually ordr e same food too.. haha...
both of us simply love e garlic rice.
gona learn hw to cook tht whn i hv my own hse



a simple but expensive dinr at seafood paradise.
we only ordr 2 dishes.
a crab, & a fried sotong yu tiao.

i like e feel.. slowly eat, chat..



is 2 weeks aftr e eye bag removal.
eyes stil blur, completed 2 antibio eye drop.
cn see alittl of eye bag whn side view.
dark rings stil thr.. & i bot quite a numbr of eye products.. hee....
currently busy applying tos eye product i bot.
&, found a black head removal product fr faceshop.
aftr testing, i shd say, is gd. ^ ^




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my dear is bk fr his 'bachelor trip'
was so excited tht day whn i went airport to meet him up.
eyes blur, cun see clearly even whn he is alrdy ot.
we had dinr at e airport thn went hm..

he told me quite afew 'amazing' thgs thr..
bachelor trip... kind of expected tos thg.


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bro's stuff left with e hse to settle.
ex sis inlaw ms angel is filing a case to obtain niece custody
gona attend family court tis week.

surprise mum is ok to pay tht super ex levy fee.

wish all tis wil settle real sn..


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i m getting old..
he is seeing me getting old everyday.. =(
2 more weeks for both of us to think..


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younger darling got A2 for his chinese..
m proud & happy for him.
fr so so lousy, to able to get A2.

every alternate night i was asked to sit beside him..
sm of e days, i haven't even bath or had my dinr..
teach til i almost vomit blood..

well, is worth everythg.. ^ ^
hopefully he score well for e rest of his subject as well


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older darling register for sch..
his daddy pocket has a big hole..

well, thankful he has a rich daddy..
he may nt b able to study further if is just me..
or we wil nd to worry for $ whn he study..

sm gd point abt tht man * ROLL EYE*


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baby nt drinking watr also cane, wa lao...
'ren'.... kip telling myself is nt my son,
is her's.. jeff ask me nt to interfere hw she teach son.

is nt i wana interfere lor..

dun brush teeth, cane.
dun drink watr, cane.
dun zzz, cane.
throw thg on e flr, cane.

thn if nxt tm he nvr study?
if he lie? if he skip lesson?
if he fail his test? hw........?

small matter alrdy CANE.
bigger matter..??

i DUN undrstd lor.......
is just dun drink watr.......

y must CANE???


*angry* @_@ *angry*


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tis is me.
thr is smthg tht follows me since i was a baby.



thn i fine day, i decided to 'just do it' !

i went for eye bag removal !

below were my everyday pic aftr eye bag removal.



i cun open my eyes right aftr removing..
day 2 was v swollen.



4th & 5th day stil swell, & e swell area turned red.



i look like i hv v rosy cheeck.


me & my eye bag, last tm..




today, me. e 6th day.




i had always wanted to remove my eye bag.
actually besides eye bag, i also v much wana remove my freckles.

i m born with eye bag.
whn i was young, my eye bags were stil quite norm.
as i aged, it got bigger & started to sag..

i did quite a number of online research,
on procedures, results, & of cos e fees..

dear always say i look ok, no nd to remove anythg.
but tht particular day, my eye bag was reali so big,
whn i look at e mirror, is was as big as my eye, or i shd say bigger..

i told myself, ok thts it.. sooner or later i wil stil get it removed.

i called e clinic & fix an appt to go for consultant,
without letting my dear knw..

i wanted to surprise him whn he is bk.

i went see doc myself,
he checked & told me wht kind of eye is nt suitable to use laser method.
thn he said my eye is alright to remove e eye bag via laser.
we fix anothr appt to remove eye bag.

i nd to start my medication 2 days b4 actual day removal.
as e day gets nearer, i begin to get worry.. & frighten..

i decided to tell dear..
is actually quite a big decision i had made on my own.
i started to get more & more worry.. of e process, & results, on everythg.

dear accom me on e actual day.
he sat at e hall sofa for 3hrs..
i didnt knw e whole process wil last 3hrs,
cos doc say e removal is abt an hr..

nurse took awhile to find my veins,
poke a needle thr, took sm pic, & i was put to zz..

during e process, i could hear ppl talking.
but i cun remembr wht they talk abt.. i heard noises..
at certain stage, i felt e pain..
is like on & off i feel smthg, & on & off i knw nothg..

i m nt sure whether is dear sitting outside worrying me..
but i m worry tht he is sitting outside worrying me...
i told e nurse i wana go out to see him once i was awake.

nurse told him to cm in instead.
aftr ensuring i m ok, we went hm..


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dear said i look like panda dun knw kai kai or jia jia... lol
i told him is jia jia la... cos i m a gal.

& indeed, i m jia jia til now.
guess wil probably nd anothr 1-2 weeks to slowly look norm.

is an experience..
many days of sticky eye, watery eye, blur vision.

i cun open my eye every am til today... lol
cun see thgs v clearly..

i finished all medicines & eye drop & is stil sticky.
recovery is rathr slow but is getting bettr.

eye bag removal is permanent.
freckles is nt.. it wil cm bk aftr many mths or yrs...?

m stil thinking whethr to do e freckles nt..
mayb end of e yr..? or mayb nt doing.

i m afraid of e needles.. & afraid of e 'wil nvr wake up' thinking i always hv.


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i didnt take mc or leaves to rest at hm aftr e removal.
went office with no makeup for e past 1 week. haha...

ppl ask wht happen to my eye?
ansr is : allergy to medicine. (i lied.. nt bcos of face issue, it bcos lazy to explain).

u cn imagine, hw ugly i was...
no makeup nvm, & with BIG puffy eyes for e whole week.


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i wana tks dear.. for everythg.. everythg..

i love u & miss u..


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cun wait for tomorrow to cm..


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m heading to cck town council to submit doc.
e weather is horribly hot.

didn't attend e exercise review today,
m thinking settling e hse thg asap is more important thn review.

mum is getting old, she tends to forget dates nowadays.
she wil also repeat sm of e thg she said or ask b4.

may drop e exercise program.
completed 1.5mths, another 1.5 more mths to go.
althou didn't slim dwn, but learn alot fr thr.


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seen new boss' s boss with a pair of super puffy eye.
he seems like a nice person..
anyway is too early to tell now.


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finished vd4..
fantastic series.
simply love vd ^ ^


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last night apps ah lee ask her hws mum and kids,
no reply. lol
guess thr is war agn.

tis is wht i seriously dun like.
so wht thr is war?
cun u just std FIRM?
y must u gv in whnevr thr is war?
y cun u see or feel wht is ridiculous?
all of u r alrdy Adults,
do u nd to live ur life under his command?

pathetic.

hello, we r almost 40 or 50s.
we nd our life.
u r alrdy almost 70.
r u happy? Ur foot is almost inside e grave yard,
wht more do u wan besides family healthy and happy?
wht more do u wana ask for whn u stil hv a whole family ard u?

I pity u.
Ur choices had made ppl ard u suffer.

I wil nt let u take away my happiness.
I wil nt let u in charge of my life.

If my e other half decided to gv in,
I'll see wht cn I do.


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tm check, 8.45pm.

m now sitting at my hse dwn str waiting for a  green light to go up.
they hv frens coming ovr..

m hungry.. bot food but cn nt eat yet.. sigh.

lol, jaslene and her fren held jovan's hand walked pass me..
go up lor... continue later.


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tm check, 11.50pm

bath, dinr, watch series..
now on bed blog..

is thurs, our gai gai day.
u r away for 2nd day.
jie say gong gong found out I apps her.
she ask me hw?
I told her just study.
I told her, her job is study,
e rest dun bother.

mum stil coughing.
had ask e half doctor to nag mum see doc if nt recovering.


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downloaded the current v in trend ghost movie, e conjuring.
thou i dun reali like, but it has so many stars,
m thinking mayb is reali nice, i shd watch.
wil watch in HD tomor, with many ppl ard me.. ha..


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i hope e other side has no war.
else wil b poor mummy or ah lee.
i hope he wil just understd & dun b so stubborn.
he needs to understd, is our life.
he needs to knw we r happy.


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eyes stil swell.
i m stil jia jia... lol
sticky and blur vision.
finished all medi, left e cream.

hope wil speedy recovery,
so u cn see a better me whn u r bk.


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getting lazy to go exercise alrdy..
sigh.... hw hw hw?


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hapi to see ur sms.
wanted to save sm $ for u but... dun care la...

I'll go meet u if they aren't picking u up k..
else I'll see u whn u cm ovr send me hm

love and miss u...


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sleepy alrdy...
gd nite dear. .


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anxious...
worry..

hopefully is fine & gd..


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i hv no idea, nowadays y i hv so many acne..
sigh.. hate it.

seriously? acne at my age..? strange.


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both new project & shifting postpone..
happy in a way..

'new' boss may hv new pattern.. hopefully everythg smooth smooth


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exercise program started.
frens lost fr 2-6kg aftr 1mth, except me.
well, all bcos i nvr count cals..
& i nvr follow e hw many mins per week exercise.

i m e most 'disobedient' student


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1 more admin thg to do,
wish to settle everythg sn..


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didnt knw uti wil resulted in stains & blood..
i tot i m having menses.


hv to kip reminding myself to go loo more often


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last mth migraine was only once..
few days ago i had 1..
hopefully is bk to last tm, once every mth..


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smurf 2 was ok.. i like e new gal smurf.
e 1 got black hair with blue strips.
v nice hair ^ ^

turbo nt as nice..

i wana watch e Mortal Instruments: City of Bones (22aug),
got demons, warlocks, vampires, werewolves.. (i like)

i also wana watch Percy Jackson: Sea of Monsters (29aug)..


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nash told me, tis is me in acnl..
tis animal has e same bday as me, 11nov

e thg is.... so ugly.. frown sm more..




nash say, tis is 28jan animal..
my dear is so pretty & cute..





y make 11nov so ugly? lol..


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my new laptop.. ^ ^

all i nd is smthg to watch my series, & to upload photos..
tks dear *love*




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m spending quality tm with my dear lately..

has been yrs we didnt manage to hv breakfast togethr besides overseas..

all tks to her.

enjoy these days.. waking up, stil zz mode, went breakfast togethr..
& i simply love sharing food with him.. ^ ^




we took e kids to marina.. as requested.
but we only see 1 part of it.. didnt see all cos is v late alrdy
& i got a couple of mosquitoes bites fr thr.. 




1 of our fav, but late nite dinr




& our yummy dinr at marche



thr goes my whtever diet & slimming.. lol..


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older darling removed  4 tooths a week b4 his bday..
e tot of it alrdy so painful..

1 of e night he bleed alot.. poor him




recovered alittl, we celebrated his bday with a steamboat & a cake.
22yrs ago i gv birth to him..time reali flew..

a simple dinr is gd enough..
幸福, 其实可以很简单..



his daddy bot him a new S4.. ^ ^
i welcom him to e samsung club..





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my game, acnl.
hv been v loyally playing it everyday.. lol
was telling dear is worth e $.. haha...

i like tis umbrella u see here.. v sweet
& right aftr chris taught me whr is river or lake,
& right aftr we went check on sea creatures list,
i caught a turtle... i was so excited abt it.. i almost jump up & dwn

tht special apple u see, is indeed a perfect apple..
was so happy too cos chris say is v rare to hv it agn if u sold it..

happy happy me.. ^ ^

i managed to grow a perfect tree aftr tht =D



e game's fireworks !
1st tm i see it last sunday, i was so excited..
is pretty..  ^ ^




& e real life fireworks ^ ^




althou is packed, & seriously many ppl walking here & thr,
but i enjoyed


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introducing.....



擂茶

i so wanted to try tis..
hmm... i must admit e taste is indeed weird.. haha...
but i like.. & wil definitely eat it agn if i hv e chance.

hw does it taste like...?
is all e ingredients u see thr, all added up togethr tht kind of taste..
if u dun like vegi, u wil definitely dun like tis .. haha...


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m gona do smthg importn on monday..
smthg i wanted to do v long but didnt

1 fine day i suddenly decided to "just do it" !
wanted to surprise dear..
but ended up cos i m scare... thus i told him..

hopefully e result is gd..
hopefully e $ is worth spent..

*pray*



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