tis is me.
thr is smthg tht follows me since i was a baby.



thn i fine day, i decided to 'just do it' !

i went for eye bag removal !

below were my everyday pic aftr eye bag removal.



i cun open my eyes right aftr removing..
day 2 was v swollen.



4th & 5th day stil swell, & e swell area turned red.



i look like i hv v rosy cheeck.


me & my eye bag, last tm..




today, me. e 6th day.




i had always wanted to remove my eye bag.
actually besides eye bag, i also v much wana remove my freckles.

i m born with eye bag.
whn i was young, my eye bags were stil quite norm.
as i aged, it got bigger & started to sag..

i did quite a number of online research,
on procedures, results, & of cos e fees..

dear always say i look ok, no nd to remove anythg.
but tht particular day, my eye bag was reali so big,
whn i look at e mirror, is was as big as my eye, or i shd say bigger..

i told myself, ok thts it.. sooner or later i wil stil get it removed.

i called e clinic & fix an appt to go for consultant,
without letting my dear knw..

i wanted to surprise him whn he is bk.

i went see doc myself,
he checked & told me wht kind of eye is nt suitable to use laser method.
thn he said my eye is alright to remove e eye bag via laser.
we fix anothr appt to remove eye bag.

i nd to start my medication 2 days b4 actual day removal.
as e day gets nearer, i begin to get worry.. & frighten..

i decided to tell dear..
is actually quite a big decision i had made on my own.
i started to get more & more worry.. of e process, & results, on everythg.

dear accom me on e actual day.
he sat at e hall sofa for 3hrs..
i didnt knw e whole process wil last 3hrs,
cos doc say e removal is abt an hr..

nurse took awhile to find my veins,
poke a needle thr, took sm pic, & i was put to zz..

during e process, i could hear ppl talking.
but i cun remembr wht they talk abt.. i heard noises..
at certain stage, i felt e pain..
is like on & off i feel smthg, & on & off i knw nothg..

i m nt sure whether is dear sitting outside worrying me..
but i m worry tht he is sitting outside worrying me...
i told e nurse i wana go out to see him once i was awake.

nurse told him to cm in instead.
aftr ensuring i m ok, we went hm..


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dear said i look like panda dun knw kai kai or jia jia... lol
i told him is jia jia la... cos i m a gal.

& indeed, i m jia jia til now.
guess wil probably nd anothr 1-2 weeks to slowly look norm.

is an experience..
many days of sticky eye, watery eye, blur vision.

i cun open my eye every am til today... lol
cun see thgs v clearly..

i finished all medicines & eye drop & is stil sticky.
recovery is rathr slow but is getting bettr.

eye bag removal is permanent.
freckles is nt.. it wil cm bk aftr many mths or yrs...?

m stil thinking whethr to do e freckles nt..
mayb end of e yr..? or mayb nt doing.

i m afraid of e needles.. & afraid of e 'wil nvr wake up' thinking i always hv.


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i didnt take mc or leaves to rest at hm aftr e removal.
went office with no makeup for e past 1 week. haha...

ppl ask wht happen to my eye?
ansr is : allergy to medicine. (i lied.. nt bcos of face issue, it bcos lazy to explain).

u cn imagine, hw ugly i was...
no makeup nvm, & with BIG puffy eyes for e whole week.


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i wana tks dear.. for everythg.. everythg..

i love u & miss u..


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