a letter to my dear hubby.


tomor we wil mark our 5th yr togethr..
i hope we wil b as loving,
& able to communicate with each othr for many 5yrs more ahead,
til e day either 1 of us is gone.

falling in love with u, moving baby steps til now,
taking every up & down bravely,
from any situations, b it ms v,
mr old phee, or children, or wk... etcs (anythg tht arises)
is nvr easy... but, i did it. At least til now.
like wht ah gal written, she is proud to b our witness,
cos our path to marriage is not easy.

i hope u wil nt lost ur patience on me as days goes by.
especially me being forgetful, or certain thg i insisted.
i hope u wil stil b a gd listener,
& a loving man just like whn we were gf bf.
i hope u wil nt forget, wht we went thru.
wht i had insisted, hw i had held on.
human r forgetful.. in tht manner, i hope u r different.

nobody knows wht lies ahead.
in 10yrs time, u wil b like me,
kids wil hv their own lifes..
in 10yrs time, u wil b like me, in e 40s..
which is stil young for a man.
but by thn, i m 50plus..
i m heading towards 60s..
u r only heading to 50s..

m certain tht, god send me to u, is to b ur guiding angel..
to protect u, to prevent u fr getting into tht same trap over & over agn..
i guess god had alrdy know, u r hopeless whn is anythg to do with her..
u wil just keep falling into her damn trap every time without fail.

u asked whether i regret marrying u,
my answer as of now is no.
so long i cn feel ur love,
i cn stil b who i m, thr is nothg to regret
although i have an additional role.

u asked whether i regret marrying a much younger u,
as of now, my answer is no. Not sure anothr 10yrs later thou.

is kids tht i m worrying..
cos i knw they wil in a way, cm in between us..
& thr wil b tons of responsibilities, in terms of body, mind, & soul..
not forgetting their education, food, shelter, attentions & needs..
& is not just 1.. is 3.

i hope i wil pass.. as a step mum, as ur wife.
i m v focus in terms of u.. i knw my role v well..
just worry whethr i hv e stamina,
to keep up all e responsibilities & expectations,
cos i knw i m getting old.

as a father of 3, i knw u hv ur limitation.
thr r pros & cons of cos.
with tis 3 fellows ard, i knw u hv been trying ur best to balance up.
& guess wht? i had actually allowed u to 60 kids 40 me,
or mayb 70 kids 30 me.. guess u didn't notice tht huh... ^ ^

is simple, is nt exactly importn whether u 50 50 us.
cos they r ur flesh & blood.
my both darlings wil also cm 1st in my heart.
wht is importn is, u hv me in mind, u care & love me..
even if u r 80 kids 20 me, i wil stil b ok..
hmm... but guess i wil nag abit. hahaha..

woman r silly creature.. they cn do anythg for love. ANYTHG.

i m sorry for unable to get bk in shape (e 's' size me whn we pak tow)..
in a way give up e thought of getting bk e 's' size me aftr so many tries..

i m also sorry to get mad whenever thr is anythg to link with ms v..
cos anythg to do with her is a HIGH alert to me..
&, i wil continue to get mad & in high alert mode til she is dead.


1 day mummy (ur mum) wil b gone.
thr wil b no mummy to fall bk to.
& no mummy to help out with.
now mummy is stil ard & able to help u out almost 50%..
love her more.. she is a great mum from wht i see..
tht is y she deserve my respect.


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to end tis letter...
tis is wht i wana say :

thank Q for loving me.
althou u had once chose to let go me.
thank Q for not blaming me for keep putting on weight..
althou i ate pretty much e same amount of food daily..

& .......... i tell u huh,

u dun bully me huh....
u dun ignore me whn i m full of white hair,
teeth all drop, skin all crumpled, & nt attractive anymore hor..
u dun go sex anothr woman whn i cun satisfy u hor...

u cn ONLY love me, saiyang me til e day i m gone.


love u, colin phee..


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side note ..

sue said, nowadays i glow...
at tht v moment, i was thinking ... " GLOW....??? "
1st thg in my mind was,
got sm kind of lights ard me like god? hahaha..

i reply her, " cos i POLISH myself everyday... " lol...

thn i begin to think wht she said..

i glow....
y i glow huh....?
i only knw i GROW.....
didn't notice i also GLOW......

hahahaha..................


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