old phee asked : 'y must marry? y cn nt just stay together?'
old phee asked : 'u gana once, she (ms v) took half of ur hse away u not scare ah?'
old phee said : 'sm1 rejected her, thr must b smthg tht is no gd (defective)'
old phee said : 'sm1 used her before, thn dun wan her alrdy, used before..'

old phee said, he dun agree to tis marriage, he will not ack me.

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i think old phee got it all wrong.
i dun nd his ack.
i nvr nd anybody's ack.
i m unlike mr phee.

i think old phee got it all wrong.
his son is nt a millionaire, he dun hv alot of $ for me to 'dok'.
his son has 3 v young kids tht stil needs alot of attention, time & $.
his 3 grandchildren are all old enough to speak, whether i bully thm or nt.

and nowadays, even if is single, may also been 'used' before.
i think he is living in e 50s, or 60s.

whtever la..
is ur lost for nt loving me as ur dil (daughter inlaw)


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went out with gal & mei.
hmm.. i hardly did such gals outing.
partly bcos i m nt an active person,
hardly take initiative to jio ppl go ot,
& has always been bz.. so would rathr rest if i m free..

anyway, outing was gd..
heard each other's secret.. LOL
ah gal gave me cherries.. ^ ^
i m munching e cherries now blogging..
thank Q huh..

gal was so enthu..
sigh.. reali admire her feeling young heart.
she propose to go massage, go batam, meet up weekly..

happened to pop by gal's pl e next day..
saw her flr, her inlaw..
hse is kind of small..
inlaw ma.... shall nt comment her. hahaha...
wondering, wil her inlaw says she keeps going out..?
wil she says she nvr do hse wk even if she is at hm?

oh ya.. she has a big box of small small tic tac sweets..
i took 6 small tic tac sweets..
on behalf of all our 6 kids, thank Q aunty wendy ~~ LOL..


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recvd an email informing tomor is sharm's bday..
like i care...?? lol
he miraclely left his timesheet on my desk.

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baby has been quite nice to me tis 2 days..
seems strange to me .. lol
keep asking me to play with him tis 2 days..
& no longer say dun like me & no longer ask me to go away.

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had sm heart to heart talk with younger darling.
i dun knw y he dun like his dad..
but i do hope 1 day wil change.

& also wish both darling's mind nt just $...
hv to think of health, rich in knowledge, as in wisdom,
nt just $$$..

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tht woman, nt happy me 'keep' appearing at her hse.. lol
whtever la.... like i care whether u happy nt..
my husband has 80% of e hse share ley.. who r u to comment??
i just dun wana quarrel with her.. nt bcos i scare her hor.

dun think u r e 1st wife so u 'big' hor.
dun think tis is 'ur' hse so u 'big' hor.
i just dun wana create a scene.
if u gone too far, i wil nt b nice to u.
wht goes ard comes ard.

e more i think, e more i angry !

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bk has been aching tis 2 days.. dun knw y..

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is mid of jun leow..
hopefully, bank is able to process & approve faster..
id drawing is out.. looking forward to see e drawing bcom real ^ ^

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m watching a hk series, m club.
nt reali nice, but...
ep 24 is reali sad.
cn feel sm of e thgs in e series..
y? bcos, they r in e 40s.. just like me..

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i wana watch transformer..

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going batam soon..
cn glue him a whole day.. *love*
enjoy gluing him ^ ^

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i dun wan u to die.
cn nt die

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omg.. i simply love tis.. all e 80s canto
tis is so amazing..



refreshed my memories..
all of thm r fantastic singers..
leslie, anita, alan tham, jacky Cheung, miss thm all...

hw i wish tis cn b converted to mp3 song..


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gd morning world..
i woke up at 6am, feeling gd.
felt like i had a v gd zz, eyes pretty wide open lying on bed
heard many noises outside, went out & saw little fellow is also awake,
playing in e maid's room.. lol..

yesterday was feeling rather lousy.
was at 1st only having slight sore throat aftr my durian session last week.
missed durian thus went durian session despite e hot weather.
we hv mr phee, dionne & myself eating 3 small durian.
dionne had e most, but both mr phee & her r ok.
aftr durian session, i m dwn with slight sore throat,
thn sore throat ok alrdy bcom flu, thn now is flu & cough.

heard fr nash tis is gd..
i went get myself 2 dosages.

i shd say i see result aftr 1 dose.
tht store lady said i m having 'han' (cold) cough.



finished e 2 dosages, i went to e shop yestrdy to get more medicine.
i was thinking, i m also having flu,
so i asked e shop lady, whether they hv got any flu medicine,
& tis is wht she gave me. (i dun hv fever hor)..
and e lady said, ' u cn nt drink cold water, cn nt eay chk,
cn nt eat egg & e only fruit u cn eat is apple '

i was like.... LOL..
cos, i hv been drinking cold water, eating egg, eating chk almost everyday
& i ate 2 orange few days ago.

dear was laughing, he said u hv been eating all tos food..



medicine powder fixed with water..
& is not nice.. lol



will continue to take, cos i m seeing result..

took e phees & 1 of e classmate to watch hw to train e dragon 2 yestrdy.
is nt nice... u cn save up e $ watch online..
compare 1 & 2, 1 is so much nicer..

aftrn was alrdy feeling lousy.. all i wish is to lie dwn..
migraine decided to join in e 'fun'..
it bcom v bad at night, tht i wana vomit.

joey was sweet..
he asked me to go zz at ard 12mid night,
he let me zz & he stayed at e hall.
i took migraine medicine & zzzz...
feeling fresh at 6am.. lol

wht m i gona do later...?
m gona get lunch & dinr for e kids & maid later..
m gona pack abit of clothes, cos m gona stay ovr at dear's pl agn.. ^ ^
see whethr i cn steal sm nap later or nt.. &....
is tm to color my hair ^ ^

1st week of jun is gone.
coming week gona chase hdb, wil also see id.
m hoping to get e hse key by end of jun.
but fr e look at it, is tough.

before i end tis entry,
i wana drop dwn hw upset i was with sharm.

i came to knw, he is e 1 tht ask ics whether they hv vacancy.
he knws i m lack of staffs & he stil go ask ppl wan hire him not????
wht e FUCK.
and e best is, they ask him y he wana go over, he told thm his contract ended.

A PILE OF SHIT OK !

his contract has'nt end.
he is serving his 1 mth now but within 3 weeks,
he alrdy UL once, last min mc 4x & all on WEEKEND !!

i m v angry.
he is reali TOO MUCH.
he caused so much inconvenient to all of us !
ALL OF US !!!!
ah...................................... i m so angry.

he is bloody hell a fucking SELFISH ASS HOLE !!!!!!!!!
he nvr spare a thought for any1 of us ! NEVER !!!!
we were like his family, we worked together for yrs.
and he is doing all tis SHIT to all of us ????!!!

his colleague cun rest, bcos nd to cover his duty.
i cn nt rest bcos i nd to worri who cn cm bk, if nobody cn go bk, it wil b me.
he had made his colleague NEARLY out of job (SO CLOSE).

he said he is sick, SO M I!!!
ASS HOLE !!!!!
i m MAD.



during his days with me,
i had guided him not only on work, but on personal issues.
he was unable to wk, cos he broke off with his thn gf.
he cried & tell me he wana give up.
i told him to hang on, i told him to build up his career.

he thn went on with a man.
i told him is gona b a tough road if tis is wht he chose.
i told him to go further study.
i told him to balance wk & personal.

i m not asking him to repay my kindness,
but all these while of guiding, working like a family,
dun mean anythg to him at all???

i cn made him out of job twice.
i chose to give him chance.

i told mr phee, " his god teaches him to repay kindness in tis manner????
his parents teaches him to b tis kind of selfish, heartless 忘恩负义,no 道德????
wht has god been teaching him???
wht has his parents been teaching him????

he wun go far.
not with tis kind of character.

i had told ics, to see for themselves.
i had told ics, anythg he did wasn't taught by me.
i had told ics, i m disappointed with him.
but i did not said wht he had done.

guess wht???
he self 'removed' himself from our HD grp chat last night.
tos staffs tht leaves me, wendy, huili, ben, they dun self 'removed' themselves.
stil hv another week to go, he wil b gone for gd.


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dwn with flu but stil v active.. lol
e usual sleepy & tired body, just need plenty of rest.

report quite on time.. happy.
cn eat abit of snake. haha..

went ovr to dear pl last saturday, for abt 1/2hr or so..
dionne didnt inform her i m coming ovr.
ended up her face black black & said i stink her whole hse. lol
i m e most 'xiang' person as compare to tos ppl ard me ok !

joey wana hv a piano..
i'll see hw i cn fulfill his not cheap wish.

i m glad my darling didnt go for e tattoo..
u dun nd an 'art' to remind u thg.

hse paper wk nt complete.. cun take key.
dun knw whn thn all paper wk ready,
dun knw whn cn take key.

enaged an id alrdy.
feeling excited to see e 3D drawing.

i m going ovr to dear pl tonight.
she is nt happy abt it but... who cares???
m gona go thr at least once a week, my plan.
anyway one more mth to go, thn no more alrdy ma..

i dream of my hse hall is purple color..
nash was at my pl.. & some other ppl..
purple hall.... so weird isn't it...?

last night felt right leg & arm slight numb..
i was rather scared.. luckily tis am woke up was ok..

last sat am, i woke up & saw baby sitting on his mum's lap.
he saw me & said : " Today is saturday, no sch. Dun say bye bye to me "
i replied him : "ok.."
lol..

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learning to build e trust & faith agn.
seriously dun knw wht shd i do or react.

overall i guess i had managed it quite well..
althou there were weak emotional day & dun knw wht is hunger.

moving forward wil hv many Q & A involve..
many reassurance required, many 'wild thoughts'..

i need time.
& pls proof to me.


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