fri was a terrible day.. particularly ard evening tm..
we hv island wide screening dwn..
island wide trs dwn, TP dwn, transcom dwn..
queenstown dwn, thn screening dwn agn,
pcg dwn, tnss dwn.. my god....!!!!!!

all e above happen within an hr..
we were so bz.. got tm to take call no tm to log case !!

we were all thinking who nvr bath..??

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jovan's mummy is at paris now..
cn see jeff miss her..

bb dun reali seems to miss mummy..
guess stil too young to undrstd tht..
but i knw she wil definately miss bb alot..
she wil b bk on thurs i think..

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phone bill increase $28..
all bcos data usage exceed..
dun knw y tis mth exceeded..
all e while i stay within e range nvr exceed b4..

suspect was due to i use iphone app to watch movie online..
& i use iphone tethering..
so i decided to remove iphone online movie app..
stop dwn load movie using tethering..
& i wil observe for another mth or 2..
if is stil exceed.. i wil properly get a portable broadband thg..

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mum called.. feedbk plus nag abt dad..
she begin to belief dad 老人痴呆症 is real..

last tm she wil tell me dad dun knw is real 'short',
or bluff 'short'..
she said dad wil ask her wht is he gona do aftr dinr..?
mum angry him & told him to go dwn str see china woman la..

dad ask mum same Qs agn few days ago..
he ask her wht is he gona do aftr dinr..?
mum told him go sleep..
mum said he reali zzz e whole day..

mum said dad is afraid of her..
she said she noticed he put e spoon bk to e drawer aftr food..
she noticed he did tht twice alrdy..

mum said dad take alot of medi..
she said like tht sure 'short'.. lol..
she seems to put e blame on all his medi..
she said eat so many medi hw to nt bcom 'short'..?
she also said dad dun like to bath..
she has to force him to go bathing..

but he cn stil take bus to chai chee fr cck..
he cn stil call me to take $..

think his 老人痴呆症 is beginning stage..
latr he wil nt remembr more thgs..
tht may include who is my mum,
who is me, who is he himself,
hw to go hm, hw to eat or go toilet..

anyway... i just recvd his call awhile ago..
he told me he has seen doc.. e bill is hw much..
he told me, small aunt paid for him..

i told him i wil pay his bill..
i told him i wil pass $ to small aunt..
he said "thank Q'...

haiz... my heart aches.. y must he say thank Q to me...?

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看见身边的人老去
心里有鼓心酸
有一天他们会走
有一天我也会走
生命是有多长
没有人会知道
生老病死天注定
只希望在我有生之时
我身边的人都开开心心

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many many many times..
whn i m alone..
i think.. wht had happen..
wht is stil happening..
wht i had done..
my life.. e past.. e current.. e future..

wht others had done tht affected my life..
e pain.. e struggle.. e balance.. e faith..
e confident.. e belief.. e love.. e tears..
e forgive.. e 'forget'.. e move on.. e determination..

i always feel tht, god/buddha send me here is to make others hapi..
i always feel tht they (god/buddha) r training me..
to b a better person in my nxt life..

i'l take tht as my 修行..
i m a tough gal.. & i always tell myself 'i cn do it!!!'

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i wish my beloved 2 darlings r healthy, hapi, successful & wise..
i wish my dear is healthy, hapi & build up his carrer real soon..

i wish he wil forever stay by me, no matter wht happen..
even whn my teeth start falling..
even whn my hair turn white..
even whn i cun walk fast..
even whn i bcom v fat..
even whn i cun hear properly..
even when i cun remembr thgs correctly..
even whn i m sick on bed..
even whn e whole world go against us..

cos i wil do e same if all e above happen to him..

i love u, colin phee.. ~jesco~