i m bk..

so many thgs happened in these 4days,
i m e 1 tht completed everythg,
day in day ot..

i hv so many thgs to say,
but wil nt drop all dwn here..

all in all in points form,
i m v disappointed,
i wil nt b heart to heart with u anymore,
i m sure dad left happier bcos no nd to get scolding every day,
i m thankful to tos who make an effort to drop by see dad,
i m thankful to tos who provided me with mental or physical support,
i wil nt feel bad or guilt if i did 'incorrect' thgs to u,
cos u owe me, cos i feel it is tm to take bk wht i deserved,
cos i feel since others is gd, dun look for me..

& if u think i m heartless, thn b it.
tos ppl who r ard me, who r closer to me thn u (pls feel ashamed of urself),
wil knw whether i m a heartless person.

i cun stay long b it at ur pl or hospital,
i wouldn't call to chit chat wth u,
is just me.. i m like tht, & u knw tht.
perhaps is nt up to ur mark,
but i did my part.

i only do v necessary & importn thgs,
such as seeing social workers, writing to mp,
calling here & thr to enquire procedures,
bring dad for review or checkups, consulting lawyers for u all,
collecting dad's body, sending dad last journey to mandai,
collecting dad's ashes, sending dad's tablet to temple,
sea bury dad, & all his 头七，三七，五七，七七四十九天 wil all
only b me to go pray for dad..

yes, i dun sit long at ur pl or hospital,
& i dun call to chit chat wth u.
but i did so many thgs tht u all dun do...
i did so many thgs ALL by myself..
all u did was nag !

anyway, e sky & ppl ard me saw wht i did.
if ur heart is all e while nt wth me,
no matter wht i did wil nt b able to satisfy u

no more heart to heart wth u, no point.
in ur heart tos who sits at ur pl or hospital 24hrs r gd,
tos gv u $ r gd, i m nothg to compare wth thm,
thn b it.

gd luck to u.
continue to love ur beloved only son,
who took few ten thousands dollars fr u,
who scolds & shouts at u,
who dun wan u to rest,
who is v selfish,
who thinks cancer is e BIGGEST..

dun cm nag to me, wht ever shits u r getting is u ask for it.


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tks daddy for loving me even thou i m nt ur biological daughter..
nobody is perfect, & i knw u did wrong thgs too..
nevertheless, i m stil thankful to u..
& i remembr u held my hand, carried my sch bag & walked me to sch.

u had ended ur journey here & made thgs simpler for me..
may u rest in peace & i knw u r happier at e othr side of e world..

by e way, hope u like e bmw i bot.. hv fun driving daddy..

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