mum has been calling me more often..
as early as 7am, as late as 12 mid nite..

1 fine day she wil break down.
1 fine day i wil not talk to her cos too pissed off by her.

she always feel that i m no gd.
well, i m nt perfect.
i m tired too.

bro's will is finally done.

wil b seeing dad's social worker tomor..
another round of talking..
proper procedures, documents etc.

had wrote an email to cck mp.
seriously hope he wun ignore my mail.

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reports left with with 2..
so stress up with bro, dad & mum..
rushing here & there, report was delayed.
ended up rushing reports like hell.. sigh

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had a short short trip with dear.
i needed tht v badly.
enjoyed myself thou sick

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i always think, tht day wil nvr cm.
even if it cm, it wil properly b 10yrs later.

whn u mentioned abt 111213, i was happy.
cos in my heart, u hv e tots, & tht is gd enough.
althoug i wil occasionally ask u whn huh...?
knowing ur situation, i nvr take ur reply v seriously.

til u told me wht u said to mum
til i knw mum's reaction..

til date, i m stil in a state thinking " is tis real...? "


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cough is getting better v slowly each day.
finish all medi & stil coughing..
hv been v noisy with snore & cough,
joey cun zz well bcos of me..

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jovan has been waking up mid of night crying..
think he is not used to full day sch..
patience is needed whn is children

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