i wana watch tis....
he has grown up... ^_^


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m so sleepy nw.... lol

my boy is coming bk tomor.. ^ ^
aftr 3 weeks of worrying..
but... his rm is super messy nw..
cos all our thgs hv to temp put in his rm 1st..


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yestrdy & today r e open house show room days..
all of us got to get ot of e house..

i was so tired aftr a whole day of walking, wondering, etc..
due to boredom, i spend 3 hrs doing my hair,
& e result is lousy... cos so v old sch colour *hate it*

hv to live with tis old sch head for few mths..

woke up by baby ard 6plus am, went ot of e house ard 8plus am..
all e way til 9plus pm, i went hm..
waited by e pool thn almost 10pm.. thn went up..

tired is e word..

today, woke up by baby ard 6am agn..
decided to sit in office instead of wondering ard..
joey went ot with his fren yestrdy,
& today he went grandma house to study..

aftr today thr r anothr 2 more days to go...
reali shiong..


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doc suggested to radiotherapy bro.. but just on his eye..
anothr doc say if he stop all treatment, he wun last for 3mths..
told mum.. hopefully she is building up e mental preparation..

e whole of last week was sourcing bro's "equipments"..
doc initially asked him to go bk tomor..
thr mayb a change of plan aftr e recommendation of radiotherapy


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iron man 3 is gd... althou i dun reali like him as a super hero..
went watch drug war alone yestrdy.. hmm.. ok ok, normal HK movie..


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wendy left... all e best to her


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stupid ST went disabled the cd rom..
wa lao... i cun even watch my cd series..
seriously, they hv nothg better to do


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another few more days to my report...
bz bz may..


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sigh....

m gona wonder a whole day....


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tis is my 1st spec in my life..
wht spec is tht? 'lao hua' spec..
cun get to see small wordings clearly nowadays.
plus aftr doing reports & cross stitch,
my eyes kindna went blur..

told dear & went to make tis..
right eye more lao hua thn left eye.. haha...



nowadays both of us r supper bz.. sigh..
didnt see him for 5days & only get to see him for few hrs for e whole week.
just hopefully all e bz wil turned into gd..



tis boy is coming hm in a week's tm..
miss him, & always kindna worry..
cos of tht, i'll constantly check on all e social network area to ensure he is ok..
his rm nt reali all tidy up yet.. he reali has got so many tees..
we 'stole' his door access card, & also 'stole' his glass table..



these were e yummy food we had for e past few weeks..
nothg much cos of our bz schedule..



coming week days alrdy fully packed wth thgs needed to b done..
followby may tied man power, training, & jun new project launch..

right hand went explore.. left with left hand.
v soon left hand wil explore too..

cn tell min i'll bz til nxt yr..


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is just april.. 4 months gone & alrdy 4th ppl past away..
my dad, boo's dad, wen's grandma & TA's dad..
tis isn't a gd yr i think.. & i dun knw hw long cn bro live..


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ovr at nv for a week..
kindna get used to staying here alrdy..
althou thr r many thgs nt done..
everythg is waiting for e open hse to complete b4 we cn do..
thus, nw we r leaving with no hanging of clothes behind e doors,
no study table & book shelf for joey, etc etc etc..
i dun even hv a door access card.. lol..

m stil exploring on e transport..
wht bus to whr & hw to go hm besides cab.. lol...

yestrdy tried e gym.. alittl small i shd say..
& i soaked myself in e pool too.. ^ ^

overall i like tis way more thn simei..
is tidy, neat & my face has lesser dust staying here.

just tht dun knw y baby cries more ovr here thn e rest of e hm..


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i enjoy study ppl..
seeing thm doing thgs i dun undrstd y interest me..

our body is a v complicated structured thg..
& everythg r all link up..

chain a happens & wil links to chain b,
& wil links to chain c & so on..
a same matter, may react & handle in a different manner..

humans r reali an interesting creature..


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random thoughts :

any tiny thg cn also fall sick in our body..
b it just a tiny vein, or an organ.

fr nose, to ear, to stomach, to brain, to penis, to womb..
hw to ensure everythg in our body is nt being "over work"..?


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1 more yr to our nest..
5 more mths to e special day booking & also joel's ORD..
3 more mths to shifting office..
2 more mths to launch of new project..
1 more mth to our short trip..

and nt forgetting joey's Olevel..

bz bz yr..


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hw long hv i nt updated my blog..? seems so long..

latest news, actor huang wenyong passed away fr lymphoma on Sat at e age of 60.
lymphoma..... same as my bro..
bro's almost 9 mths... nt sure hw long did wenyong had it..

doc said he cn go hm if he didnt get worst.. properly nxt mon.
nt bcos he is cured.. is bcos he had finished e whole cycle of e new chemo.
& thr is nothg more e doc cn do.. no better medi, nothg else..

coming week is his last chemo..e chemo tht inject on his brain..
it seems controlling, cos his right eye cn open wide nw..
other thn e right eye, e rest remains e same..
hands & legs stil numb.. & his new symtom is gastric..

nt sure wht wil happen aftr he goes hm..
doc said, as he is at adv stage, it wun b cured.
e chemo is only to prolong his life..
doc said it wil cm bk soon.. once it is bk,
it wil means gone case..

i didnt tell mum & bro abt tis..
i knw they wun b able to take e news..
althou in their hearts they knw it is v tough to recover..
but guess deep dwn in their heart, they stil carry sm hope..
they stil hope for miricle..

bro has been v bad temper.. everyday scold mum & neice..
mum cun take it any longer.. she said she dun feel like viditing him nowadays..
mum said dun feel like visiting her beloved son...
cn u see hw 'serious' it is nw...?

i dun knw hw to enlighten bro..
it wun go into his brain no matter hw or wht others said..
i guess... hatred had swollowed his heart..

i m nw worry more for my mum..
dun knw hw long cn she tong..
it is tough on her for e past 9mths..

gona sign custody soon but nt sure he is gona sign nt.. sigh..
foresee he wil scold more whn he is at hm..
mum & niece wil b his poor target..

but..... seriously.... i dun think he wil last long..
cos whn he is bk hm, chemo wil only b once a mth instead of 2x a week..
& tht once a mth chemo is just to hang him thr..

imagine 2x a week condition alrdy like tht..
wht wil happen if is just once a mth...?


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tm check now 0915hrs.. stuck in a jam..

boy shd b reaching ard 12pm local tm..
& tht would b ard 6am thr.

25days.. seems v long..
look at it week by week,
instead of day by day wil seems shorter. .

as a mum, I m worry more on safety. .

he wil properly miss all local hm town food,
such as... his favorite bubble tea..

eu wil definitely get him tht whn he is bk.
so m I... & mayb chow chow chow =)


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sm times, i m rather proud of myself..
althou i knw is nothg to others (small issue)..
but i just feel proud tht i cn handle thgs all on my own..
settled thgs by my own, even thou i m v scared.. lol

i did my 2nd jab within 2 weeks...
1st jab was twinrix, thn yestrdy did my chk pox vaccine..

nxt twinrix is ard last week of apr ,
& nxt chk pox jab wil b 1st week of may..

reali scare injection.. but i did it !
i should gv myself a pat on e shoulder & say 'well done' ! lol


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older darling flying off for abt 3 weeks for another army training..
he wun b ard while we shift..
is a gd experience for him.. hope everythg smooth smooth..
i'll see him off later.. gona miss him..

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qvod died stil bothers me.. y died out of a sudden...?
guess i'll properly v nt used to it,
& i wil properly nag on & on..

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i see many babies this mth.. & they r just so adorable.. *love*

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fed up.
u so ma fan cn..
shift & shift nvm (is ur hse i hv no say)..
hse smaller & smaller nvm (is ur hse i hv no say)..
whn u buy u nvr think u hv 2 more sons de meh?

ppl cm see hse, all 3 of us must disappear,
all my thgs must hide (cosmetics, photos, etc),
basically my thgs r always in & out of e cabinet,
thn u buy thgs alrdy wait wan sell.. if nt throw..

now u tell me later got ppl coming up see sofa @ 8.30pm..
thought we sending joel off..?
ask u y must today see, cn nt change to other day thn see meh,
u say cn nt, cos e couple flying off, thn nobody wil buy tht sofa..

angry ley.. ah......

thn u say we all need to hide whn they r up see sofa..
fuck la... hw long ur both kids need to hide????
they r ur kids ley, y nd to hide...???
hide wht?????
v v fucking shameful to hv thm meh ????????

wa lao ! soooooooooooo dam angry...

FED UP !!!!!

wht wil u indirectly tell kids...?


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bro condition nt reali improving.. now his feet cun lift up..
just bot him 2 water cushions,
cos he mentioned his butt pain cos keep sitting dwn.

his heart is full of hatred now..
he is basically angry wth everybody..

dun knw y he dun seems to undrstd..
hope buddha wil assist, to make him understd life, & gv him strength..

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my left eye has been 'hopping' for 2 days.. hmmm..


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after so many yrs of using,
it decided to die today..

m sad, cos I rely on it alot..
m supper heavy usage user..

uninstall & reinstall dun wk,
reboot ws also nt working :'(

all it say is plugin spoiled. ..

my qvod... :'(
nd to look for alternative leow..

movies my big hobby.. :'(


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