&.. will post halloween pics once i got e card fr dear..
stay tune..

tks daddy for e cheng teng..

wondering..
whn mum inlaw brings 2nd aunty walk ard..
did she ever think abt me..
eg, whr is e daughter inlaw she claims she cares..
did she ever think.. wht if i m ard..
thn all 3 of us, jeff, her & me r gona b so awkward..

was surprise to knw tht,
my sis inlaw told me to accept e fact..

she said jas is a v strong opponent..
she said jas wil make herself to wht jeff wan her to b..
she said jas is v hard working..
she said jas is a nice lady aftr being wth her for few times..
she said jas cares & she wil do her best to cares for
tos importn ppl in jeff's heart..
she said jas wil go e extra miles to do all thgs for jeff..

suddenly..
i bcom a 'loser'..
& i lost cos she is indeed reali reali
so so so so so so much bettr thn me..
suddenly i think.. 'wht m i..?'
sigh..

long ago i alrdy knw i lost..
long ago i alrdy knw she is a strong opponent..
long ago i alrdy accepted e fact..

is just tht.. aftr married..
aftr gv birth to 2 wonderful boys..
a super strong opponent appear..
thn accept e fact..

life.. is indeed tiring..
do ur best at wk..
do ur best as a mum..
do ur best as a wife..
do ur best as a gf..
do ur best as a fren..
do ur best to maintain ur figure..
do ur best to everythg..

tired..........

hv slight sore throat..
think i m reali 'body weak' ..
here pain thr pain..
virus all ovr..
& guess wht..
i bite e same spot in my mouth 3x...


dear said he is nt feeling well too..
hmm.. must b fr me.. virus..


nw i m in my rm.. blogging..
everybody r outside.. at e hall..
singing, playing, watching tv..
laughter sound suddenly heard..


sis inlaw, bro inlaw, neices & newphews & father inlaw all here..
they cm by to visit thm..


mum inlaw cm latr..
she brings along her sis.. we address her as 2nd aunty..
she brings her sis here, means they r all ready to show her to thm..
they r all aware of her.. her son's new hse wth her..


mum inlaw brings 2nd aunty ard e hse..

i cun go ot.. cos i reali dun knw hw shd i face thm..
shd i smile.. & treats like nothg happens..?
hw will thm see or think whn they see me,
staying wth thm, in their hse..

i seriously dun knw hw to face all tis..
i knw i shd go ot to say hi to thm..
but i didn't..


jeff pop in e rm..
i ask him, hw m i gona go ot..
he signal me to stay in e rm..


so i m here.. blogging dwn my tots..

& suddenly i heard mum inlaw's voice..
talking to her sis, "tis rm is joel's rm.."
i rush myself to e door, i stood v still behind my door..
& my door push open..
e hander touches my stomach..
i heard mum inlaw say "tis is joey's rm.. nobody inside.." ,

i was behind e door..
thinking.. fastr close e door pls..
thn they walked away..

luckily they did nt walk in.. they just stood at e door..


suddenly jeff peeps in..
he must b surprise & wondering hw cm seems nothg whn
they open e door just nw..

he saw me hiding behind e door..
i told him.. "cn ask thn dun walk here walk thr.."
i told him.. "i dun knw hw to face thm.."


little darling walk in to take his nerf..
he is gona play nerf wth his cousins..


also hv no idea aftr hw long,
jeff open my door & say, "they went off lor, 15mins ago.."
"they" means 2nd aunty..
i told jeff, shd hv tell me earlier..
i was so high tide sia..
i rush to toilet rite away..


mum, father, sis, bro inlaws r stil outside..
kids were laughing.. running ard..
they had fun..

last nite slept ard 3am..
went hm cooked food for little darling cos he was v hungry..
(think he has gastric cos he said tummy pain)
waited for him to finish food, brush teeth..
thn i go bath..

donald sms me ard 8plus am..
ask wht tm cn i send him e report..
i saw his sms ard 9plus am..
& i was thinking..
"huh... whts e rush.. i stil wana sleep sm more.. "

woke up ard 10plus, replied his sms..
told him wil send ovr ard 2pm..

woke up wth bk stil slight pain (bearable)..
went slow motion brush teeth,
slow motion take clothes,
slow motion change,
slow motion take bag,
slow motion open door..
cos littl darling sleeps like pig..
sound asleep..

make coffee, took medi..
went office..

went get sm food for staffs & myself,
rch office ard 11plus..
start doing donald's report..
abt to send ot ard 2pm..
saw an email from OSE saying,
nd to add all their oct activities in..

called donald.. added 30 ovr activities in..
redo reports..
send ovr to him ard 3plus pm..
went hm ard 4pm..

decided to try bus 25..
remembr dear said take 25 at e serangoon bus stop..
walked ot of e building & start wondering.. whr huh....
temple thr.. walked to e temple..
thn think whr huh..
& finally i rch e bus stop..
bus was thr whn i rch..
by e tm i rch bedok interchange,
was ard 4.35pm..
hmm..
m thinking, plus train.. think an hr shd b able to rch..

went to bedok ctr, bot dinr for maid..
bot snack for kids.. & dinr for myself..

by e tm i rch tanah merah mrt, is 5plus pm alrdy..
walked hm.. drizzling..

both darlings went ot wth jeff & her..
they were ot for lunch at a hotel..

whn they cm bk, i alrdy bathed..

m gona watch e cd i rented fr tampines 1 shopping ctr..
was surprised they hv tis services..
rental series.. i cn rent series fr thm.. =)
my favourate pass tm hobby..
nw i got my new laptop..
i cn watch my series..
& i rented e 与敌同行..
so hapi whn i knw they hv rental..

went halloween wth gal, gal gal, eric, alex, dear & littl darling..
all 7 of us..

yestrdy morning, website said fully book..
ard 11, dear went ovr to get tics directly..
luckily he managed to get tos tics..
$35 per person..
appreciate his effort..
if nt we wil nd to Q for hrs for tics..
& Q alrdy also dun knw hv or nt..

whn we pick littl darling,
it was raining so so so heavily island wide..
thn we headed off to amk to pick gal & lex..
slow traffic..
they said wana take bus thr thmselves..
but we r reaching sn..

dear drop us at safari & headed to pick eric & gal gal..
at woodland..
by e tm he rch was alrdy 8pm..

i wori he hungry, order a meal for him..
so tht, once he arrives he cn just tuck in..

spend quite alot last nite..
fr food (3 of us), drinks, tics & all e rain coats..

$.. nt reali an issue to me..
most importantly.. is hapi.. enjoy..

was reali crowded.. even thou it rains..
we took e normal tram..
thn walk..
thn took e spooky tram..

by e tm we finish everythg..
is 12plus almost 1am..
littl darling was hungry..
we were all thirsty..
$4 for a coke.. lol..

on my way hm, oldr darling said nd food..
requested dear to drop me at e nearest food ctr,
withdraw sm $.. bot food & go hm..
littl darling alrdy fall alseep in e car..

pass dear e $, we went hm..

overall e halloween was quite fun..
nt reali tht scary..
if oni it dun rain..

tks dear for all e efforts..
guess last nite wil nt happen wthout all ur efforts..
fr went dwn to purchase tics..
to pick little darling fr office..
to pick gal & lex fr amk mrt..
to pick eric & gal gal fr woodland..
to drop me smwhr to get food..
to send us bk hm..
thank Q..



* i was so excited abt e nite..*
* in e end is disappointm.. *
* cos everybody hv smbody ard thm..*
* i dun hv.. *

disappointed ..
tonite outing to safari was a disappointment..

zzZZzzzzZzzzz...
sleepy...
zzzZzzzZzZzzZzzz....

wanted to get e safari tics for tonight online tis morning..
e web prompted, all fully booked..
thr r mayb some walk in tic available but 1st cm 1st serve..

dear was nice enough to go dwn to grab tos tics..
6 adults & 1 kid..

latr gona pick littl darling..

m so sleepy nw..
hw i wish i cn just... zzzz...z....z...

hope... tomor wakes up no bk ache..

daddy put littl darling old mattress for me to sleep..
hopefully i m ok tomor..

their dinning table is here..
quite classy.. black.. simple..

left sofa.. & cofffee table.. nt ready yet..

mc for 2 days.. yestrdy & today..
but stil go bk to wk..
daddy nag.. dear nag even more.. >.<"

dear : "sick dun wana rest.. ask u to rest u say 1st & 2nd week
u need to do reports cn nt rest.. now is nt 1st & 2nd week,
now is last week.. u stil cn nt rest.. like tht u 1 mth 30days,
all cn nt rest.. so u sick also must choose date to sick huh...? "

>.<"" sigh..

tomor going halloween at nite safari..
wth angels & little darling..

dear said if i dun recover tomor,
wil cancel e whole thg.. =(
told him i also wana recover sn ma..
i also dun wan tomor wakes up bk pain agn ma..
he just said, he dun care..
so long tomor i dun recover, no safari.. =(

m pretty excited abt e safari..
cos m rather curious..
& think is gona b fun..
best part is..
dear said if he is frighten, his instinct wil hit tht person..
he may beat tht person.. (he said is his normal reaction)

>.<"

watched 'imagine tht'..
nt bad.. quite warmth story..
talking abt a daddy only cares abt his wk..
didn't spend enough tm wth his daughter..
& bond has slowly created ..
simple & nice movie..

sat hv to go bk office..
donald requested to gv him e report earlier..
he said to gv him on sat..
sat is 31oct..
he said 31oct shd nt hv any calls..
hmm...

today go bk office cos thr is a new staff..
an indian guy name jay..
he seems to b ok.. at tis moment..
just hope he is gd.. has heart to wk..
if nt, he wil wasted my mc la..

i love my oldr darling..
i love my littl darling..
i love dear..
i love daddy.. (buddy love k)
i love all my angels..

nite nite..
zzzzz...

tomor no pain pain k..
i wana go safari..
i scare tht pain..
even a slight move, a breath, a swallow also pain..
dun wan pain pain pain..

i was so nt feeling well..
monday alrdy noticed right side of my bk ache..
didn't reali bother much abt it..

till yestrday..
morning at wk felt 'cold'...
wear jacket alrdy stil cold..
thn e bk pain get worst..
so pain tht my tears drop..
dear send me to see doc..

tis doc..
dun knw wht to say..
i walked in, he ask wht happen..
i told him, i feel cold..
he ask, cold as in flu, or cold as in chill...?
i reply, chill.. & body ache..
thn suddenly he took ot a mass & wore..
its nt tos normal white mask tht ppl put on e mouth..
e mask is like... fireman helmet..
i was amazed by him whn i saw tht mask..
thn i was thinking... m i tht scary...?

thn he ask, got fever..?
i said no..
he measured & say 36.8..
thn he said, just nw i measured outside by his nurse was also 36.8..
thn he measured agn.. & stil 36.8..

thn he asked, got flu?
i said no..
got cough..?
i said no..
got sore throat..?
i said no..
thn he asked, urine got pain..?
i said no..

thn he started to explain,
usually feel cold is a sign of smthg..
eg, if u urine pain, thn mayb due to urine infection..
if u stomach upset, thn is due to stomach flu..

but now i hv nothg..
thn he said mayb is e begining,
thus dun knw wht is my cause..
in e end, he only gv me panado..

last nite doze off ard 9plus 10..
awake by oldr darling call..
sleep bk..
thn.. i woke up every hr..
12plus, 1plus am, 2plus am, 3plus am.. & so on..
sigh.........

got sleep like nvr sleep..
nvm..
woke up tis morning ard 7plus wth migraine..
& whole body pain..

dun think i cn go to wk today..
even swallow (drank coffee) cn feel e bk pain..
i cun breath in all e way.. wil feel e bk pain..
i hv to breath slowly.. nt full inhale..

luckly daddy was ard..
he gv me muscle relaxer medi & migraine medi..
went rest aftr medi..
awoke by gal call..
LH looking for me.. cos there is a new staff coming in today..
she would like me to intro him 1st..
so..... i change (didnt even put on makeup), go office..

but aftr daddy's medi.. i feel much much better..
i cn turn my body (althou thr is stil slight pain)..
m hapi.. at least i cn move.. i cn turn.. e pain is bearable..

tks daddy...................

i wana change my mattress..
i think is e mattress..
actually.. m scare to sleep..
it has seems like, e bed wil break my bk.. :s
requested daddy to change e mattress for me if possible..
scare tht mattress..

watched Sorority Row..
ok la, not bad..
a murder that happen just bcos of sm 'fun'..
kept guessing who e murderer was..
a number of twist & suspense..
unpredictable sudden death..
e way they died..

Halloween 2..
nt nice..
e whole movie just stab stab stab & stab..
so sick.. & 恶心..

The Blue Mansion..
personally, i find e movie nt bad..
local actors & actresses did a gd job..

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aftr dear's kids exam finish..
m gona watch..
'my sister keeper'..
'imagine that'..
'julie & julia' ..
if possible..
ok dear..? ^.^

fall alseep at dear's pl..
was half watching tv.. blogging..
& i just doze off..

awake by HD call.. continue my blogging wth eyes half close..

daddy has been nagging me to change address..
& is finally done..
thank Q phee phee.. =) U welcome

was wondering.. & dun undrtsd y u nd to hv tht..
able to use internet any whr..
msn any tm..
anyway.. accepted e fact..

nw my dear is bk.. massaging for me..
wow... nice.. =)

continue latr

HD staff strength nw bcom pte ltd...
almost got a miss call on sat morning..
haiz.. thanks sue for 'saving' e call...

& gal has been quite a gd gal lately..
she didnt fall asleep..
cos she knw once she sleep,
she wil nt notice e ph rings..
she wil check cases for me..

dex hv been falling asleep lately..
haiz.. due to his new business..

hopefully, thr r new staffs coming in sn..
hopefully they r gd ppl & hv heart to wk..
hopefully thr is no miss call..
hopefully everythg smooth smooth..


hmm.. sleepy lor..
go bed now..
nite nite all..

a few videos..
game session..

wanted to upload these pic since shifted..
but no tm..
thgs r done bit by bit in e hse..
thr r stil certain thgs nt ready yet..

tis light is at e hall..
beautiful..

below is anothr light at e hall.. (left)

tis littl light is outside little darling's rm.. (rite)

littl darling's rm..

littl darling & oldr darling's rm..

oldr darling's deco..

he has a light tht changes color..

nice..

littl darling, niece & nephew.. (left)

oldr darling, his dear, mum inlaw & her.. (rite)

all at e hall chatting.. watching tv..

their kitchen.. & brothr inlaw..

stil learning to travel to wk by train, change bus to office..

stil trying to adapt to e enviroment..

daddy has been nagging me..

'hv u change ur address wth ur banks..?'

'hv u change ur address on ur ic..?'

among all e banks i hv..

ocbc is e most convenient bank..

they cn update address at any of their atm machine..

othr banks such as std chart,

m1.. ntuc.. cn just call thm & they wil update for u..

uob & posb nd to go dwn personally..

ma fan sia..

ok.. will update more whn hv tm..

got to go nw..

we were waiting..
for those movers to cm..
oldr darling wana take these pic as remembrance..

thts our hall..


see our messy hall..

& ... there r smthg which i wana take dwn for remembrance..

tis pic, was drawn in 1999 whn we went london..
used to b at the hall..
but we cun bring tis ovr nw..
is reali v nicely drawn..





tis pair of watch..
omg, i knw it reali look so... 土 ..
haha.. lol...
well, during tht tm, we dun find it 土 lor..
& i kept it til nw..
& in e end, it must b gone..

memories...

these were last week's pic.. (sori.. was bz wth shifting..)
we went fish & co before watching Pandorum.. (e dun undrstd movie..)

able to guess which leg belongs to who..? :p

mine... & dear's.. (mine looks nicer hor....) =D

gal's & gal gal's... nice..

everythg r serve in big portion..

in e end all cun finish..

vin treated us seafood...
at geylang..

my favourate... yum yum......


vegi.... & frogy..

tofu.. 'deer' meat...

thank Q vin..

we shall hv anothr treat fr vin soon soon k... ^.^

waiting.. for littl darling's bed to arrive..
aftr tht we'll go tamp mall to get sm thgs..

tomor gona b a bz day at wk..
meeting up boss's boss..
take a look at schedule cos san is leaving..

dun knw dex wil cm or nt.. haiz..

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hv to learn hw to take bus to wk fr here..
let see tomor hw..

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didn't reali sleep well..
perhaps bcos new enviroment..
slept ard 1plus am, awake ard 3plus am, thn 7plus am, thn 8plus..
cold & i hv no blanket..
used bedsheet as blanket for e tm being..
even bowel, also affected.. haha..

littl darling also woke up early..
new pl ba..

morning co him play wii..
co him swim..
he is bored..
our rm tv nt set up..
no dvd player.. haiz..
my dvd player..

nt reali used to e common bathrm..
reali small.. dun move much whn bathing..
plus e watr.. cold most of e tm..
reali cold.. even heater on alrdy also.. >.<"

she was kind, make sandwich for little darling tis morning..
thn she cook mee for herself, jeff & i hv a share too..
hmm, nt bad.. simple & nice..
thn she cook fried rice for all as lunch..

hope e bed faster arrives..

update latr if hv tm..

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*wori for HD cos i lost 2 angels.. *

watch Pandorum..
dun reali undrstd e movie..



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tos movers cm ovr ard 2pm to shift our thgs..
oldr darling is e 1st to finish unpacking..
i m e last..
reali tiring..
unpack littl darling stuffs & my stuffs..
tried my v best to put all thgs into littl darling's rm..

we were hungry..
by e tm i finished unpacking..
was alrdy ard 9pm..

hv 2 big box & 2 small box to put at dear's pl..
no choice.. reali cun squeeze in any more..

littl darling's bed wil arrives tomor..
we were nw sharing my queen size mattress..
he is nw sleeping beside me.. v sound alseep =)

he was great, helping me take tis take tht..
share his boster wth me..
i love him.. so mush.. ^.^

oldr darling also great..
he help me to remove a pic..
to kip as memory.. =)
& he is nw 'pak tor'g wth his gf dwn str..

tired.. shall upload sm photos whn i hv e tm..

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1st day here..
nt as bad as i thought..
she help ot in e kitchen..
cook food..
she cook yellow mee for my oldr darling..
she ask littl darling wana eat wht..

she address mother inlaw & father inlaw as father mother..
jeff & her call each othr 'dear', or 'dear dear' ..
kids cn jel wth her..

hmm.. hope thgs r ok as days goes by..

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tks daddy for e internet com..
if nt i wun b able to blog nw..

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tks her for allowing me to stay thr for e tm being..
tks her for taking care of my kids..

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tks my dear for collecting all my boxes fr me..

i said 'dun like latr..'
u ask y..

i replied cos i'll officially lost my hse..
i'll officially dun hv a 'shelter'..
i said 'm sad' ..

u said, 'thought u all r quite excited shifting ovr..'
i ask, 'm i..? did i said m excited shifting in..?'

thn u said fr my body language..
i ask, 'my body language said m excited to shift ovr..?'
u reply, 'kind of..'

yes, m excited to see e hse..
& oni whn she wasn't ard..

tht was curious, wana see hw gd, nice or fantastic e pl is..
nt e excitement to shift in..

wan u to recall wht i hv been saying tis few weeks..
fr i wana glue myself to e rm..
to if no tv in rm i'll go dwn str..
to i wan my dvd player..
to i wana stay at sue's pl..
etc etc etc..

base on wht u said just nw..
was amaze tht my body did nt syn wth my mind..
was surprise to knw fr my dear tht my body 'signal' to him
tht i m excited to shift ovr..

i see u more, i talk to u more thn e 2 ah gals..
but if u were to ask any 1 of thm,
whether m i excited to shift ovr,
m sure they wil tell u m nt..

u said u hardly read my blog..
dun knw wht i wrote..

thought.. if a person cares so much for e othr person,
he/she wil wana read e blog everyday.. he or she will
automatically go visit e blog everyday to see any updates..

u cun tell whethr i m hapi or nt..
u cun tell whethr i m sad or nt..
u dun feel it.. u dun sense it..

nt tht i wan u to read my blog..
u dun hv to, as u dun hv e practise..
u dun need to, if u dun see e need..

e blog is just a dairy for me..
to write dwn all my feelings & thoughts..
to note dwn all my memories.. thts all..

i always feel i m alone..
battling.. struggling..
nt just wk, nt just body & mind..
everythg.. everythg..

thought u undrstd me..
thought u wil knw..


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san called ard noon...
he is leaving...

aftr lex..
nw san..
nxt wil b dex..

watch Tsunami At Haeundae..
hmm, beginning littl slow..
but overall is a gd movie..

certain scene reali makes me sad..

fr a person try so hard to survive,
till he has no more strength but to let go..

u see ur love 1 in danger,
but u cun do anythg to help..

u begin to realise,
thr is no point holding on to unpleasant past..

u begin to undrstd,
u shd treasure every single moment wth ur love 1..

thr r certain scene tht makes us laugh..
e guy who has a nerdy comical face..

dear was laughing at certain scene..
i m crying at certain scene..
cun imagine if tht day were to cm to singapore..

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gal was littl upset, or i shd say was annoyed by anna..
anna didnt help much on wk today,
& gal is doing like 80% of e wk..

all i cn say is,
everybody knw whr anna std & hw she wk..
tht includes e managemt..

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was reali disappointed whn e 1plus1 trip is full..
we were so excited abt e price.. abt e trip..
reali cheap..

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since no more 1plus1..
we decided to catch a small getaway..
nt too far, nt too ex..

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m suppose to do reports now..
but m typing on my blog, wth eyes half close..

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stil miss my dvd player.. haiz..

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courting dwn..
1 more day to go..

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m gona bed..
& yes.. u did bring me to a different level..

sweet dreams..

whn ever i lost an angel,
m sad..

i lost shuk..
lost hl..
lost san.. (hapi he is bk..)
thou i knw he wun stay long..

i knw my pl isn't a fantastic pl..
nt gd enough to kip u guys..
& i knw ot thr has got more to learn & achieve..

now i lost u..
sn i wil lost wen..
i wil lost nesh..
i wil lost sue etc..

working wth all of u,
is a huge challenge..
all of u hv ur own 'pattern'

putting myself in all of ur shoes is wht i m doing..
tuning to ur frequency to undrstd all of u bettr..
working ot all e requests on ur roster,
has in a way bcom my 'target'..

cun do much to 'grow' all of u..

to all who gona/wil leave or alrdy left,
do ur best, dun behave e way u did here..


take care lex..
let us knw ur schedule,
we shall continue our HD outting if stil 'exist'..